Michelle Manjarrez, life long educator, natural healer, and bridge from information to understanding
When I found out that my mom was diagnosed with cancer it was, oddly, through a report I got in the mail. I was living in the US at the time and immediately I packed my bags and went back to Mexico to be with her.
It was terrible. There was a huge amount of fear.
The very next day, we went to the hospital. The doctor showed me the tumor and we had no idea how to deal with what was to come. You just don't, until you go through it. My mom was hospitalized for 5 months after that.
It has been an incredible journey, a totally new experience - a lot of unknown.
I felt helpless and powerless at that point because she was misdiagnosed, had sepsis and almost died, and there was a lot of miscommunication within the hospital envrionment. We were NOT feeling supported.
I made a decision and changed her from one hospital to another hospital. Through education, and me being an academic, I found my power coming back.
"Big guys in white robes" or, doctors, would come tell me one thing while my research was telling me something different.
I kept feeling a sense of intense doom until I became educated. It was then that I became a true advocate. It was then that I became empowered.
Then, the journey to recovery started. From there we became team players with the doctors. They recognized that there wasnt anything they could tell me that I couldn't learn to undertstand...
"What are three ways you calmed yourself in the face of ACTUAL death?"
I don't mean it in a commercial way - I mean it in more of a "sitting quietly on my own" way.
I would do that constantly.
In the first hospital there was garden where I could sit quietly and breathe. Sometimes it felt like all I could do to stay sane!
So you could do breath techniques but also sitting in nature queitly with myself was so helpful.
Nature is big. I had left the comforts of my own home and environment. Now I was in a new country, hospital....everything was new. To have my 'own space' I needed to find nature - in Mexico City!
So i found it. I was constantly scanning for nature and when I found it I took my time with it.
"You cannot make a choice if you don't know it exists."
I must say that hitting the books - making the unknown know was incredibly helpful.
Really getting deep into information - first basic information - then chats and blogs - then the more detailed information - it would distract my mind from the "monkey brain" - in those instances the monkey brain was worry about whether or not the doctors were doing the right thing.
There was a point where we had to make a huge and vital decision for my mom about a stem cell transplant - at that point - her being so sick, this option would give her time.
People can get really hurt the stem cell transplant process though - so it felt like a high risk situation. In my case I felt a LOT of responsibility.
I was asking myself, "Am I strong enough? - What if?"
There were lots of options. All the details connecting the insurance to the doctors. I found the more I could learn, the more confident I felt in my decision making.
You cannot make a choice if you don't know it exists.
3. Energy healing
I Believe that energy healing works in every way - reiki - self energy healing -
To do this I go into the core of my center of my body and get out of my mind.
I use mantras or music, which helps me get into that space where I can bring healing to what needs healing.
I am am so pleased to say that mom is stable and now living an independent life once again.
Michelle Manjarrez now leads retreats for cancer patients who can experiment with 18 different healing modalities. Based in all of Michelle's research, LifeTribe is designed to expose patients to many different options so they can find what really works for them- the next retreat is coming up soon! Click here to learn more about life tribe.
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